Is seven really lucky?

Well rumor has it seven is a lucky number....why am i not feeling so lucky? We are in the final days of our two week wait, after IUI and i am only feeling cramps like AF....nothing different nothing distinct. But really at 2 weeks pregnant would you really feel that different? Just wish i could know!
I am due to test on thursday and am feeling quite nervous. You would think after countless failures and negative tests it wouldnt phase me anymore, on the contrary it hurts even more! I feel like during this process i have lost all my friends and just become lonely. I dont wanna make people uncomfortable, and i dont want to feel left out or jealous, but i do. I just do. I just wish it wasnt so hard to live this way.
I have a long month coming up, beginning now, haha. Well this week im due to test and almost 100% it'll be NO, and then friday is the circus, then dinner with misty. October 6th Duke leaves for Barksdale, Lousiana until the 26th, then on the 27th he can rest, and the 28th he has a dental appoitment, and of course that day his Excercise kicks off (12 hour shifts) until the 8th of November, and then on the 9th he'll be flying to Florida for two weeks. When he gets home it'll be time for Thanksgiving. So it is just a whirlwind!
My friend Nicki underwent heart surgery today, they found two holes and were able to patch them up. There hoping with heart medication it will help her live a normal life. My friend Jeanie just had her beautiful baby boy, Isaac Robert Davis. Can not wait to meet him in person when she comes to Salt lake next month!